Worries

This week has been much quieter at work, mostly because everyone else has been in a million meetings (including one lasting 6 hours). It feels good to be back at work and feeling productive and useful. However, this week I've been feeling kind of down and really tired. I get 8 hours of sleep, but getting out of bed in the morning is hard. I'm NOT a morning person, and always have a hard time waking up, but some days it's like my brain is completely separate from my body and has no control over it. I can tell myself with every push of the snooze button that I need to get out of bed, but my body won't move. Eventually I get up, but still feel like I could have slept for several more hours. I probably just need more exercise. I have been eating a little better lately at least.

Another thing that has been bothering me this week is that there was a shooting at Fort Bliss on Monday at a convenience store that so many people go to on a daily basis. A man just walked in with a gun and shot two innocent cashiers. They did nothing wrong, they just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. I'm so glad that none of my friends were there, and that my husband and I weren't there. It could have been anyone. And bad things can happen anywhere, even on an Army post (ie Ft. Hood last year). I am a worrier and my heart gets really heavy with things that worry or upset me. I sobbed earlier this year when I watched the first news coverage of the earthquake in Haiti. I really feel for other peoples' pain and loss, even in fictional stories or shows. Empathy can sure be a blessing and a curse. So this week I've been missing my husband and have been worrying more just because things can happen unexpectedly, especially in a war zone. I'm trying to be strong and trust that God will keep him safe and bring him home to me. It's hard to totally surrender sometimes, especially when it's something that you care about so much and want so badly.

I got connected with some other army wives on http://armyspouselife.com/ which is like a facebook site for military significant others. I am looking forward to getting to know them better and being able to talk to people who have been or are going through the same thing I am now. I only know one of the wives in my husband's unit since he got switched to it right before they deployed because they needed extra people. Plus, I'm not living there so I can't attend FRG meetings to get to know anyone.

I did talk to my husband this morning online. I still wish I we could use Skype so I could see his face, but we have to make do with what we have. He finally got my letters and the postcards from California. He loved Esther's that said, "Dear Will, I bet you are in the army" haha. He said it was really good to read my letters. I've been trying not to email too much because he has limited access and time on computers, but I can write all kinds of things in letters that I wouldn't otherwise have time to tell him and then he can read them when he has time. He says it's been pretty intense because they have been working his platoon so hard. I hope they are able to get some rest so that they can do their jobs safely. He may be unable to communicate with me for another couple weeks coming up, not looking forward to that. Please keep us in your prayers!